Shay Mitchell tearfully opens up about her miscarriage back in 2018.

The actress recalled her experience in the first episode of her YouTube vlog series, Almost ready. Mitchell is currently healthy and pregnant again with a baby girl who she shares with boyfriend Matte Babel. She revealed why she chose to announce her pregnancy six months in.

“I chose to hold on until I announced because of the first time,” the actress says. “It didn’t go as I had hoped for, and it was extremely difficult. The first time that I was pregnant last year, Matte and I hadn’t been planning, it happened and we were really excited about it. I was like, 14 weeks. At that point, I had no idea the percentages of miscarriages.”

“When it happened, I was just completely blindsided by it,” Mitchell continues. “I still have those photos on my phone. I still have all the doctor visits, and it’s weird because I haven’t looked at them, obviously, but it’s not like I forgot about that happening. Of course, I’m, like, super happy, but I still feel for that one that I lost. … It’s just really tough because you feel broken as a woman, and that’s not a great feeling.”

In the episode, Mitchell also reflects on the limitations of being a pregnant woman.

“When you stop doing what you have normally been used to doing, which for me was being social, when that kind of stopped, it really sort of messed me up a little bit,” she shares.