Lady Gaga may be a beacon of confidence and boldness for her fans which she endearingly calls “little monsters,” but the star has her fair share of insecurities.

Mother monster graced the cover of Allure magazine’s special October edition wear she tearfully talked about beauty and how makeup got her through her bad days. Gaga tells the magazine that growing up she ‘never felt beautiful” and that there are still “days that I don’t feel beautiful.”

In the cover interview, the 33-year-old then went into detail about how she struggled with insecurities her “whole life”. This stemmed from her experience as a victim of bullying at a young age. She then revealed that her past still comes to haunt her up to this day.

So how does Gaga overcome this? With the power of makeup. “Then I put makeup on, and before I know it I feel this superhero within. It gives me those wings to fly,” she tells Allure.

Now, the singer and actress hopes that her makeup line Haus Laboratories will do the same for her fans. The Oscar-winner is currently busy she prepares for the launch of her cosmetics label on Amazon.

The recording artist also recalled a time when she experienced being in a bad place at a time when she was in-demand in multiple projects.

“When I was doing the Joanne tour, I’d been touring since I was 22 years old. I’d just done the Super Bowl, Coachella, A Star Is Born. I really started to break down,” she tells the publication.