2019 is a bittersweet year for Beyoncé’s fan base. It’s the year Queen Bey released new music for the remake of Disney’s The Lion King. Lest we forget, it’s also the year Beyoncé’s Homecoming got completely snubbed by the EMMYS. That last one is a hard pill to swallow for those in the Beyhive and it gives us flashbacks of Lemonade’s GRAMMYS snub from 2017.
While the Beyhive didn’t take any of this sitting down, the queen herself doesn’t really care about it. On Elle magazine’s January 2020 edition, Beyoncé explained why being recognized by awards shows isn’t what success means to her now.
Speaking on the cover interview, the songstress said:
“I began to search for deeper meaning when life began to teach me lessons I didn’t know I needed. Success looks different to me now. I learned that all pain and loss is, in fact, a gift.”
As to how she got to this place of security, the music icon credits her experience with motherhood. In the same interview, the mother of three candidly shared that she had struggled to conceive.
“Having miscarriages taught me that I had to mother myself before I could be a mother to someone else,” she said. According to the Spirit hitmaker, giving birth to her first child Blue Ivy gave her a greater sense of purpose. She describes the experience as being “reborn” — something that benefitted her relationship with husband Jay-Z.
Beyoncé further explained that “being ‘number one’” didn’t have the same appeal to her as it used to saying, “It’s difficult for me to go backwards.”